Ah The Rain has stopped and I have been brought forth towards the light.....

Someone very special has came into my life, very important!  She has stoeln my heart away, and plans to keep it forever (laughes wildly.) Her name is Ashley!  We have been going out almost 2 weeks, and she is such a sweet heart to me..I love her dearly.  There's something about her that attracts her towards me.  I love her because she makes me smile, happy, and makes me want to move foward into the future.

I love this girl! I hope she never leaves me, I want us to be eternal partners for life.

And I hope she puts me in her Xanga ^_^ Mrs. Ashley Dalhover! ^_^

<3 Ashley bear!!!!

xoxoxoxoxoxox!!!

I walk in the Rain again....happiness drifts from my sanctum of power and strength to uplift me, to hold my power towards the heavens.  I have died in my misery only to be reawakened by love...but then love fades away like a dream in the afterlife.

I have been cursed, a curse that doesn't ever allow me to ever find a good female spouse...or is it destiny.  I don't know what to believe in, I have one friend (female) who says I should turn gay...why should I?  Just because I can't get easily laid as any other person in america doesn't mean that I can't find love.  Love is of course more than 4 simple letters in the alphabet.

In me I have more than love to give, I also have hate, inside me I have a deepth of hate, its deep, I never show it much...but you can look at me and think "That guy has it hard." Not hard as in money or anything, hard as in love, relationships.  I was recently cheated on by my ex 3/5 women I have dated cheated on me..2 actually didn't, the other 2 were in love with me, but left me.  But I am glad they didn't cheat on me.

Well anyways I will bid you a farewell until I talk to you again Blog!

"I walk in the Rain...."

Is it rain?

Life has a purpose to fulfill, and I have one purpose, to live life to the fulliest, so come with me children to the valley of the great gates, help me share the wealth of life with others, let us help each other.  I walk in the rain....

Lately I just wonder what I am doing with my world, time is so short, and you know I don't want to die, sometimes I wish I could just slow time down, to enjoy life, because once I hit 40+ Life is gonna suck, be old...thats why I am so wanting someone in my life to share, so time doesn't seem short.  Sure I am greedy, but who the hell isn't?  I may be one man, but I am a man with dreams, so many I want to fulfill and yet I have such short time.

But yes I do know Love isn't everything, lol I am just waiting for love to knock on my door, it may be a few more years, but hey she will be the lucky one ^_^.  I hope you like the new changes, :) I LOVE THIS SONG (if you really know me I love Organ Music...it makes me feel all powerful.)

Lately I long to hear an Opera...any opera, just in Latin, Can be a sad clown, anything I just want to see one, they are marvelous I would rather see one then a football game. ^^ Baseball Different story, but I am not your typical man, I actually do take in to consideration how you feel, anyone man or woman, you come before me no matter what, I am (in my vision) absolite, and I really might sometimes not take a hint...but it happens to us all.

Well anyways thats on my back that I thought I'd share, I hope to post more ^^.

About me "Capricorn"

Your positive traits:

You are serious about relationships and ready for a commitment.
You tend to help your partner attain the success they dream of.
You are a rock. Relationship problems don't seem to phase you.

Your negative traits:

Sometimes it's very hard for you to accept your parnter's past.
You are emotionally reserved, and difficult to connect with.
You expect your partner to take care of you - and make cheat if they do not

Your ideal partner:

Is incredibly powerful and well respected.
Is often older than you - and could be a superior at work.
Has a good amount of money... or the ability to be rich someday.

Your dating style:

Practical. A "get to know each other" coffee date is just fine by you.

Your seduction style:

Bossy - you like to be the one in charge in the bedroom.
Slow and patient. You know that good sex takes time.
Calculating. You'll use sex to get ahead, if necessary.

Tips for the future:

Open up. A little emotional expression is a good thing in relationships.
Leap before you look. You don't have to run a cost benefit sheet on everyone you date.
Enjoy the now. No need to worry about marriage on the first few dates.

Best place to meet someone online:

eHarmony - they'll automatically match you with someone who's as driven as you are

Best color to attract mate: Dark green

Best day for a date: Saturday

Well today has been a very weird day.  One year ago I asked Jennifer Hilliard...the sweetest soul god could have ever created....she understood me, helped me through tough times, gave me hope...then two months later she breaks up, I get 3 reasons why....

1. I didn't believe strongly in my faith.

2. I tempted her in the naughty ways (aka I made her horny as a hound dog)

3. Held another guys hand for like 3 milli seconds.

Okay those were the order I got those, so tell me whould you be feelingl like shit too?

This Valentines Day was normal, not really anyone wishing me a good one, but Katie wished me a good one, I felt good, atleast one person actually gives a shit about me.  The rest of you...I'm really disgusted in you.

I have been pissed off before, but not now, not really pissed more like hatred.  yeah...good stuff.  Anyways I wish ALL of you (whoever the hell reads this journal) a Happy Valentines Day, and espically you Katie, ty.